Saturday, June 03, 2006 @ 11:38 PM
This morning around 2 a.m. in the morning, I prayed to God the same prayer I had been praying over the nights for week. I prayed and prayed and prayed so hard and asked God why? I prayed and prayed and asked God for direction. I prayed and prayed and asked God for help. I prayed and prayed until I cried myself to sleep.
I was really desperate for God to touch deep in me. I was desperate for a real touch from God. Desperate for a breakthrough. I was quite lost in what i was doing, so, I sms'd a few people to pray for me.
This morning, I woke up early, prayed again. And I went to service. (By right should have shepherding but I was late so changed to after dctm. -.-')
During pm, I prayed really hard again for God to touch me and speak to me like never before, to shower His presence upon me.
Woah. Praise. The songs. God IsMoving and Rain Down. How much I sang those songs with all my hearts. I was almost tearing during praise. I knew God didn't make this a conincidence.
Then came the Worship. Saturate. I prayed really hard again. Because despite it all, I still wasn't getting what I knew I needed. I prayed very hard, kept crying out to God. God! Please! I need You! Somehow! I kept praying and praying and asking, and these I meant it from my heart.
I long, for more of You
I long, to be with You
I long, I long for You
And God's presence came rushing over me after I sang that. I teared and thanked God. I kept crying. -.-' I really tried not to lah, so malu to cry in front of so many people, but then I still cried. And cried like siao. -.-' Cried till my eyes become quite puffy and tired. Haha. But was tears of joy. Really happy. Really. It's been so long since I've prayed for spiritual breakthrough.
The prayers and sermons and alter calls, all of it, were prayers and guidance for all my prayers I had. Amen, amen, praise the Lord! I was so happy la. Still very happy. But physically very tired. -.-' Like lao ah ma. Haha.
DCTM was great, shepherding was great! Both teachings are quite alike, but I've gotten fresh and different insights from these teachings. Haa. Great. xD
Expecting much, much more from camp!